weightless.

Sometimes I wish I could just put life on pause and linger in moments and let myself process it before life inevitably keeps moving forward. I keep having those moments, I want to hang on and just bask in the happiness I'm feeling temporarily. So much good is happening to me lately - and I don't mean that in a boasting sense but literally. Life. has. been. so. good. to. me. I think it's because I've finally made the decision to just be overall happy, happiness IS a choice. I don't care what anyone says. I don't know of any drastic changes in life I just enjoy what I've been given regardless. But, I have been given much good these past few weeks. I must admit, I kind of want these next few weeks to drag on a little, as excited as I am to leave the country and such I just want my time with Lauren to last longer. I'm not ready to not have her in my life fully, I mean that whole heartedly. I have no clue how I'll get by not to mention, I'll be throwing myself into a third world country not knowing anyone or having any familiarity. crap. I can't sleep, every night my brain keeps me up with random memories of my life, about my future, leaving Lauren, my parents, the gospel, boys, Ecuador, longing for home, Oregon, fields of flowers, my wedding? Yes indeed. Lack of sleep = no bueno. Want to know what else is no bueno? My spanish. I'm in for it. Take luck.